Why didn’t I learn, Just my Thoughts


Photo was taken in Léon, Mexico😘

Why did I not go to Swiss again? Why didn’t I go to all those places I really wanted to go too? Why did I go to France again? To be asked the same questions or things over and over again.. to listen to people call each others names and yelling like they don’t have regular voices or like they’re not next to eachother in the same room? Even the cat was loud. Why do France people judge each others so much? If they dont have peace among themselves, what do they think the rest of the world say about them? America is way better country then France sorry to say. I believe that the only reason people go to France is go to the City of Paris to see the Eiffel Tower. Why did I come again? Why did I come here again? Was it based on my feeling. Why didn’t I just my listen to myself. Christianna Emilie Mony learn to listen to yourself first before don’t anything. Stop trying to please everyone, stop letting people have control over you and mostly stop making decisions with feelings. You are beautiful, your kind, loving, and mostly the child of a king. Stop letting you’re self down and doubting. Do what makes you happy because others are make sure they are first Ask the Lord for strength, the path to direct you and listen to the voice… I won’t be back any time soon… thank you France.


Today, today, how do I even start? Am I living or am I crying. I feel like I am just living a world of me please people not to leave me. What am doing wrong? Am I changing all my way of how people liked to take advantage of me and they know they could not take advantage any longer. Now, they skipping to the next catfish. I think I cried today maybe a little because someone I care for left me. But, it’s not the first time they left me. So, I didn’t cry as much as I did a year ago. I found myself and my career that year. Thank you Lord through His strength, He was there. If someone is no longer happy with you at the moment be patient with yourself and keep on letting them know are still there for them no matter what.. Through power and strength that you have you can keep yourself strong.. to be Continued…


Reach Out

Good morning, to everyone that read this website sometimes, I may not have been writing as much this past few days or week, its because I’ve just started work again. My vacation mode and relationship are now done. It had thought me few things this past week or few days. I’ve learn to continue on moving forward and staying focused. Reading trying to find some peace of my mind and letting some people just be. But reaching out to old friends you may not have spoken to in like a year or few years. Asking them how they are doing and hoping for them they are doing well and loving their new career. You may not get a reply right away but, I am sure they will see and even read it if they have time. It might brighten their day a little or maybe more. Going back to work bring so much joy into my heart as if you have no ideas. I’ve spoken to random people just because. I spoke to this man on my flight that I was Deadheading on just from reading part of his notes. He wrote down on his laptop the name of my country (Cameroon). How weird is that a little, I pointed it out laughing and speaking in French in Montreal Canada. Laughing out loud sorry for I sounded like a big creep, but you have to do what you have to do to just get a word or words out of some people. Reaching out is better than being selfish and not reaching out. In this world we all know that people only really care about themselves. In my case no matter what is happening in this world, I’ll always do my part in being caring and considering for a people who aren’t considerate about me. I will always care for you even if you don’t care for me and I will always do my best to reply back even if I am busy. I will make time for me and for you.



The Light Within Us –  By -Frederick Douglas Harper


There is a future written across the face of the
Young that’s built upon hopes and dreams;
There is a future in good hearts that have been
Challenged by pains of the past;
There is a future written in the face of the young
Who have been strengthened by the wisdom of
Their elders and the pains of their past.

Me: This man is one of the best writer of the books I’ve been reading. Reading his books makes me think to myself that reading is really not as bad as I thought it would be. His poem are the best, when you start want book you would want move than the one you just read. I always try to find the meaning behind his writing. But this one poem above mean a lot. If you don’t understand it. Think harder or try harder to understand because words like this can change someone whole meaning of life.



88 The Light Within Us – By Frederick Douglas Harper


Follow the stars by being a star;
Set your aim high, by achieving goals
Step by step as you go through life;
Be a star as the highest and brightest
From afar;
Develop your talent, step by step,
As you ascend higher and higher
Among the brightest of stars;
Don’t look back in regret, or be infl uenced
By the naysayer; yet embrace helping angels
Along your path as you continue your mission
Of growing and giving;
Gradually raise your bar as you raise yourself
As a star;
Touch the celestial sky through your drive;
In your mind, heart, will, and accomplishments,
Become special and thus shine like a star to make
Others proud of you as you are of yourself;
Touch the sky and shine through hard work and
A belief in yourself;
Let the star within you shine;
Make your star shine.

Frederick Douglass Harper really though of me when he was writing his books or this book. It’s like this books bring so much true and reality alive in a person like me. Need to read this like five time to really understand it. So I’ve decide to share with you all. The name of the books is on the top underneath the picture. Hopeful we all can truly be stars like this book itself. 🤗


Stop expecting loyalty from those who can’t even give you honesty.


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    in a way that shows determination or resolve.
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      lower in rank, status, or quality.
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      low or lower in position.
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      an inferior letter, figure, or symbol.